Apologies

I try to keep things lighthearted, but the past 4 weeks have been some of my most difficult and I need to get this off my chest, since I have very few people to confide in.

I'm sorry...

To the resident who only got 6 hours of sleep last night, I'd kill for that much

To my new townhouse, which hasn't been cleaned since I moved in

To the fellow student who I "whined" to today because I was so deliriously tired I lost my filter, you made it clear that I annoyed you greatly and I'll try my best not to do it again

To the secretaries I called today for patients' medical records, for inconveniencing you for five minutes

To the unit secretary who I asked for help to fax a document, because I interrupted your conversation about your big night out and clearly irritated you; wish you'd have let me know beforehand that the fax machine was broken

To the resident who I misunderstood, but I was appropriately ridiculed so hope that suffices



Ok but for real, I'm sorry, but very thankful:

For my mom who has to listen to me complain about my horrible day, every day

For the handful of residents who make me feel like I'm more than just a waste of oxygen

For my amazing, selfless dogs who love me unconditionally but who I don't have time to play with and have forgotten to feed on many occasions over the past few weeks

For my insanely resilient body, which I continually sleep deprive and starve (not by choice, however) and fill with crazy amounts of caffeine and ibuprofen

And most of all, for my wonderful amazing boyfriend who has suffered through all of this for an entire year, as of tomorrow, despite all of my flaws and shortcomings and commitments and neuroticism and dogs....love you sweetheart!